Finding Miracles

For the past few months, I've been stuck in memories. I admit it.
I've been plagued with doubt, anger, frustration, you name it, I felt it.

I wasn't sure if this was the path God wanted for me, or if I should give it up...I wasn't sure if this blog was a waste of time or if ho'oponopono even worked! Well I finally know the answer.

Every time I take a look back at my life, I am surprised by the results. Here's just a quick summary:

1. Started a new job that was 45 minute commute.
2. Within six months I now work 15 minutes from where I live, while everyone else I worked with, is still making the commute.
3. Started at work 7am, took me a long time to get used to waking up that early. Now where I work I can get up when I want (within reason).
4. I was moved to a new department instead of going to the department I was promised. At first I fought it, but the more I fought it, the worse it got. Finally I let it go, turns out with the market now, the department I was supposed to go into was cancelled.
5. My mother lives far away and I was thinking about how I would get her, her presents this year, I don't have time off to travel - when suddenly I'm told to go to the very city she lives and help out for two weeks for work. Now I'll have no problem hooking up with her and exchanging gifts.

There are more examples I'm sure if I think hard, but it just goes to show, if you look back how things change, and for sure God, or the universe works in mysterious ways. Who are we to fight it?

Take for example point #4. I'm a new employee when suddenly I'm moved to another department where I know nothing! I'm new and still learning, but they want me to work tons of over time. I'm struggling because I'm so busy, I'm full of anger and wondering why I took this new job...months go by. I have a conflict with one of the guys on the team I was supposed to go on. I start thinking that I like where I am temporary working and might like staying here. I let it go. Not even a month later, the department I was supposed to transfer to, gets cancelled. So now they have 32 people to relocate. And I am told, that I will probably stay where I am.

So it's funny. You might not think ho'oponopono is working, but it is! It's always in the background going, churning, erasing while we go about our day to day lives. And there are a lot of memories out there that if you let them, make you stuck. And you fall into that pattern where you just emotionally react to everything...and it's hard to get out of. It takes a miracle, for me to jerk out of this state and realize that I haven't been cleaning.

Thank you ho'oponopono for waking me up to get busy cleaning. Thank you God for blessing me with a roof over my head, great family, great car, and a great job. And thank you for reminding me that I know nothing. :)

I love you!

T