Hi,
I hope everyone had a great Christmas. I know I did.
After the stress of being in a different city, and incurring expenses I hadn't planned on, I am super happy to be home. We made it home on Christmas eve, after a horrific drive with horrible winter weather. But we made it home safe, and in time to have Christmas with the family.
I was blessed, with lovely food, good people, and great gifts. I got my very first leather jacket (I've never owned one before), and I love it. I also got a 4 gig MP3 player, so I am very happy. Mostly I am grateful to be home and sleeping in my own bed.
I've been getting closer to God lately, and I am trying to listen to Him, trying to assess where He wants me to go. Lately in my life, my job seems to be not as secure as it used to be. As such, I've met with an old boss, and perhaps I will be moving back down south.
I am leaving everything open, as I don't want to worry or try and manipulate things. I want to be open, and clean. It's been a stressful month, but I've made it, and I am just grateful for the small stuff, and of course being home. Also, I have been grateful to have money flowing to me, when I should have ran out. This trip down south really costed me, but God has blessed me with found money, as I should rightfully be broke now.
I'm also busy cleaning on all the problems that I encounter, financially, mentally, and whatever crosses my path. I am learning not to let things get to me, and trying to be more at peace.
But I am extremely grateful for where I am in life, and am looking forward to the new year, and God's path for me. So for now, clean, clean, clean, be happy and live in the now.
Talk to you in the new year!
Love
T
Monday, December 29, 2008
Friday, December 19, 2008
Putting Your Ego Aside
Hi,
I know that it's extremely hard to put your own feelings and thoughts aside. But for you to be at peace and to trust God, this is what you need to do.
Take for instance, I am trying to get out there as an author, so I sent my manuscript to a publisher. They liked it but wanted me to front some of the costs. This was not what I was looking for, so I declined. Now if I allowed my ego to get in the way, I could still try and push my manuscript. But maybe this isn't my path. Even though I love writing and enjoy it more than I do my day job, maybe God has something different for me. So I need to move my ego aside, and let it be. Let it go and let God decide what's best for me. Trust me it's hard.
Everyday I catch myself judging people, judging situations, worrying, trying to manipulate things, even though I know better. Instead I need to learn to just let it go and be at peace; have love fill me instead of anger, to clean instead of worrying, to not judge. It's easy enough to say, but doing it is hard. It's a battle everyday.
But instead of trying to control my life, I am going to let go. If God wants me to get published, He will find away. If God wants me to come back to my previous job, He will find away. It's not up to me to push and manipulate people or situations, because when I do this, it sends a signal to Him, that I don't need His help.
So I'm trying to remember that I know nothing, and to just let go. God knows what's best for me, better than I do.
Remember in these crazy times with the financial market, trust in God. Don't worry, don't try and control things, let go and trust that God will provide or show you the way.
Happy Holidays
Love
T
I know that it's extremely hard to put your own feelings and thoughts aside. But for you to be at peace and to trust God, this is what you need to do.
Take for instance, I am trying to get out there as an author, so I sent my manuscript to a publisher. They liked it but wanted me to front some of the costs. This was not what I was looking for, so I declined. Now if I allowed my ego to get in the way, I could still try and push my manuscript. But maybe this isn't my path. Even though I love writing and enjoy it more than I do my day job, maybe God has something different for me. So I need to move my ego aside, and let it be. Let it go and let God decide what's best for me. Trust me it's hard.
Everyday I catch myself judging people, judging situations, worrying, trying to manipulate things, even though I know better. Instead I need to learn to just let it go and be at peace; have love fill me instead of anger, to clean instead of worrying, to not judge. It's easy enough to say, but doing it is hard. It's a battle everyday.
But instead of trying to control my life, I am going to let go. If God wants me to get published, He will find away. If God wants me to come back to my previous job, He will find away. It's not up to me to push and manipulate people or situations, because when I do this, it sends a signal to Him, that I don't need His help.
So I'm trying to remember that I know nothing, and to just let go. God knows what's best for me, better than I do.
Remember in these crazy times with the financial market, trust in God. Don't worry, don't try and control things, let go and trust that God will provide or show you the way.
Happy Holidays
Love
T
Saturday, December 13, 2008
No expectations...
Hi,
For those of you who don't know, I have been relocated for the next couple of weeks for work. Apparently we have to process invoices in time so that the payments don't fall into next year. Our budget for 2009 has been drastically cut...along with others out there, the market isn't doing too well for our company.
While here, it's easy to fall into the stress and negativity that is surrounding me. Many people are worried about losing their jobs, and the bosses are totally playing on that feeling. We are getting threatened to do this, or that...or else. I, like others, have fallen into this trap. Yet at the same time, I am always silently cleaning in my mind. I'm saying, "I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, thank you, thank you..." over and over in my head.
Since I was a little girl, I've always wanted to be a writer. I've always wanted to be like the next Stephen King, or Dean R. Koontz. I've written mostly for fun, and haven't really tried to get published. But since reading Max Lucindo's Finding the Sweet Spot, I realize that this is my passion. I love writing. Like take this blog, I've had it for almost a year and have well over 100 posts. I haven't made money with this blog but I enjoy writing, hence I keep posting away.
Anyway once I started reading his book, I realized that my day job isn't my dream job. For years I thought I would love to be a CEO for a big corporation (I am an accountant). I used to love challenges and responsibilities and working long hours...as I am getting older, I noticed that I no longer love the long hours, waking up early, or the stress. I do love to write.
Mabel Katz says to do what you love to do. Do what you are passionate about and money will come. Well I decided I should really give writing a go. But of course, at the same time I am trying hard not to have any expectations. So I sent a few query letters to some agents, and one of them liked it, and hooked me up with a publisher. So this small publisher would like to see a copy of my science fiction novel (I love writing fiction, I'm very creative that way). But I'm afraid. I know I need to let go of expectations and not care whether he likes my work or not, but it's hard. So right now I am just cleaning on the manuscript and trying to have no expectations. If he doesn't like it, that's okay, obviously that is not my path.
I haven't sent it yet, as right now I do have expectations...so I am busy cleaning, and retyping and editing my manuscript. By next week I'll probably send it out and see what they say...but I am thankful for the opportunity, and if God wants it to happen it will...otherwise I just need to let go and know that I know nothing. Which is the hard part. But perhaps with the Christmas holidays and being busy at work, this should distract me from worrying about being published. I just need to trust that God will provide what is best for me, in this time and place.
I love you! And thank you for everyone who has read my blog, and for your comments. You inspire me to keep going!
T
For those of you who don't know, I have been relocated for the next couple of weeks for work. Apparently we have to process invoices in time so that the payments don't fall into next year. Our budget for 2009 has been drastically cut...along with others out there, the market isn't doing too well for our company.
While here, it's easy to fall into the stress and negativity that is surrounding me. Many people are worried about losing their jobs, and the bosses are totally playing on that feeling. We are getting threatened to do this, or that...or else. I, like others, have fallen into this trap. Yet at the same time, I am always silently cleaning in my mind. I'm saying, "I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, thank you, thank you..." over and over in my head.
Since I was a little girl, I've always wanted to be a writer. I've always wanted to be like the next Stephen King, or Dean R. Koontz. I've written mostly for fun, and haven't really tried to get published. But since reading Max Lucindo's Finding the Sweet Spot, I realize that this is my passion. I love writing. Like take this blog, I've had it for almost a year and have well over 100 posts. I haven't made money with this blog but I enjoy writing, hence I keep posting away.
Anyway once I started reading his book, I realized that my day job isn't my dream job. For years I thought I would love to be a CEO for a big corporation (I am an accountant). I used to love challenges and responsibilities and working long hours...as I am getting older, I noticed that I no longer love the long hours, waking up early, or the stress. I do love to write.
Mabel Katz says to do what you love to do. Do what you are passionate about and money will come. Well I decided I should really give writing a go. But of course, at the same time I am trying hard not to have any expectations. So I sent a few query letters to some agents, and one of them liked it, and hooked me up with a publisher. So this small publisher would like to see a copy of my science fiction novel (I love writing fiction, I'm very creative that way). But I'm afraid. I know I need to let go of expectations and not care whether he likes my work or not, but it's hard. So right now I am just cleaning on the manuscript and trying to have no expectations. If he doesn't like it, that's okay, obviously that is not my path.
I haven't sent it yet, as right now I do have expectations...so I am busy cleaning, and retyping and editing my manuscript. By next week I'll probably send it out and see what they say...but I am thankful for the opportunity, and if God wants it to happen it will...otherwise I just need to let go and know that I know nothing. Which is the hard part. But perhaps with the Christmas holidays and being busy at work, this should distract me from worrying about being published. I just need to trust that God will provide what is best for me, in this time and place.
I love you! And thank you for everyone who has read my blog, and for your comments. You inspire me to keep going!
T
Saturday, December 6, 2008
Finding Miracles
For the past few months, I've been stuck in memories. I admit it.
I've been plagued with doubt, anger, frustration, you name it, I felt it.
I wasn't sure if this was the path God wanted for me, or if I should give it up...I wasn't sure if this blog was a waste of time or if ho'oponopono even worked! Well I finally know the answer.
Every time I take a look back at my life, I am surprised by the results. Here's just a quick summary:
I've been plagued with doubt, anger, frustration, you name it, I felt it.
I wasn't sure if this was the path God wanted for me, or if I should give it up...I wasn't sure if this blog was a waste of time or if ho'oponopono even worked! Well I finally know the answer.
Every time I take a look back at my life, I am surprised by the results. Here's just a quick summary:
- Started a new job that was 45 minute commute.
- Within six months I now work 15 minutes from where I live, while everyone else I worked with, is still making the commute.
- Started at work 7am, took me a long time to get used to waking up that early. Now where I work I can get up when I want (within reason).
- I was moved to a new department instead of going to the department I was promised. At first I fought it, but the more I fought it, the worse it got. Finally I let it go, turns out with the market now, the department I was supposed to go into was cancelled.
- My mother lives far away and I was thinking about how I would get her, her presents this year, I don't have time off to travel - when suddenly I'm told to go to the very city she lives and help out for two weeks for work. Now I'll have no problem hooking up with her and exchanging gifts.
There are more examples I'm sure if I think hard, but it just goes to show, if you look back how things change, and for sure God, or the universe works in mysterious ways. Who are we to fight it?
Take for example point #4. I'm a new employee when suddenly I'm moved to another department where I know nothing! I'm new and still learning, but they want me to work tons of over time. I'm struggling because I'm so busy, I'm full of anger and wondering why I took this new job...months go by. I have a conflict with one of the guys on the team I was supposed to go on. I start thinking that I like where I am temporary working and might like staying here. I let it go. Not even a month later, the department I was supposed to transfer to, gets cancelled. So now they have 32 people to relocate. And I am told, that I will probably stay where I am.
So it's funny. You might not think ho'oponopono is working, but it is! It's always in the background going, churning, erasing while we go about our day to day lives. And there are a lot of memories out there that if you let them, make you stuck. And you fall into that pattern where you just emotionally react to everything...and it's hard to get out of. It takes a miracle, for me to jerk out of this state and realize that I haven't been cleaning.
Thank you ho'oponopono for waking me up to get busy cleaning. Thank you God for blessing me with a roof over my head, great family, great car, and a great job. And thank you for reminding me that I know nothing. :)
I love you!
T
Thursday, December 4, 2008
Always be grateful....
Hi,
For those of you who aren't aware, I live in Canada. This past month our government has broken down and a war has emerged between the elected party and the other parties. We shall see what happens in the new year, but in these uncertain days...this isn't a good move on the government's part.
But it got me to thinking, I've been stuck in memories and life for awhile, and am just starting to get out and clean. Sometimes you get swept up in life and you don't even realize it's happening.
I am reading a book right now by Max something about Finding your Sweet Spot. And the chapter I'm on, talks about praising God for everything. He says you should wake up in the morning and say, "Thank you God for a great sleep," or "Thank you God for this great day at work." So to always be in the moment where you are praising God for your success, or whatever is happening to you. Too many times we think it's all us, when really it's not.
So my tip is this, be grateful for what you have now. Thank God, thank the universe. Live in the now, not the future. And be at peace. Be happy and content with what you have, and don't worry. Worrying is a sign that you aren't trusting in God and you want to battle life yourself. Trust me, I've been there the last month or so, and it's not a fun place. I would rather have God on my side than not.
Also, remember it's Christmas, it's the thought that counts, not how much you spend. So be grateful for the holidays and times you can spend with your family. Be grateful for the roof over your head, and the food on your table. And remember to be full of love, and try not to get stuck in memories. Be at peace no matter what chaos is going on in the world.
Happy Holidays!
T
For those of you who aren't aware, I live in Canada. This past month our government has broken down and a war has emerged between the elected party and the other parties. We shall see what happens in the new year, but in these uncertain days...this isn't a good move on the government's part.
But it got me to thinking, I've been stuck in memories and life for awhile, and am just starting to get out and clean. Sometimes you get swept up in life and you don't even realize it's happening.
I am reading a book right now by Max something about Finding your Sweet Spot. And the chapter I'm on, talks about praising God for everything. He says you should wake up in the morning and say, "Thank you God for a great sleep," or "Thank you God for this great day at work." So to always be in the moment where you are praising God for your success, or whatever is happening to you. Too many times we think it's all us, when really it's not.
So my tip is this, be grateful for what you have now. Thank God, thank the universe. Live in the now, not the future. And be at peace. Be happy and content with what you have, and don't worry. Worrying is a sign that you aren't trusting in God and you want to battle life yourself. Trust me, I've been there the last month or so, and it's not a fun place. I would rather have God on my side than not.
Also, remember it's Christmas, it's the thought that counts, not how much you spend. So be grateful for the holidays and times you can spend with your family. Be grateful for the roof over your head, and the food on your table. And remember to be full of love, and try not to get stuck in memories. Be at peace no matter what chaos is going on in the world.
Happy Holidays!
T
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