Stuck in Memories

Hi,
I've been avoiding writing a post for awhile. At first lots of great things were happening to me. But somehow along the way I forgot to clean, and quickly things turned bad.

I know I was stuck in memory. So let me get you caught up:

• My work is downsizing every week, so I was offered another job down south. I took it, and got the job. I will be relocating in the fall for my new job. I was really happy about this, and spent a lot of time cleaning, to make sure nothing happened with this new position.
• I got a few weeks vacation so I visited my sister and had a great time. Than I spent the last week apartment hunting for the move. Everything went well. It was around this time that I stopped cleaning.
• We returned home and a couple of nights later, I got sick (cold), and our apartment flooded.

After all this happened, I still didn't clean, and soon my spouse and I were bickering over the smallest things. I went to work, but my head wasn't right, so I kind of left that week to go home and deal with the flood.

Now there are a few ways to look at this, the first could be how I was looking at it originally; being depressed, and taking my anger and blame out on everyone....or I could look for the silver lining which is always there.

I've decided to look for the silver lining. Sure we may have lost a lot of stuff in the flood, but that is an opportunity to downsize and buy only what is really needed. Also, since taking time off from work, I've rested my body and am getting over my cold. My spouse and I are learning to keep our tempers in check and to come from love.

I'm not saying life is easy, but whenever you've hit a rocky patch, chances are you've forgotten to constantly be cleaning. I've been practicing ho'oponopono for two years now and when things are good, that's when I forget. And it's amazing how quickly you get stuck in memories when you don't clean.

I'm sorry for whatever is inside me that is causing this depression, anger, and anxiety. Please erase it and transmute me back to zero. I love you, I'm sorry, please forgive me, thank you.

Remember you are only a victim if you stop cleaning and jump back onto life's roller coaster. I am now going to take charge and clean.

I love you

Thank you!
T