Long Time No Chat

Happy 2011! I know, a little late…but life got in the way and I let it.

I’ve been stuck in bad memories…and I’ve been reacting to them instead of cleaning them. Memory, after memory has been playing, and I’ve been reacting to them instead of erasing them and letting go. And it’s taken a lot to wake me up and to make me realize that it’s not real, it’s just something I need to clean. And boy do I have a lot of cleaning to do.

Some of the highlights for me these past few months have been;

- Getting involved with drama at work, when I should have just stayed neutral and cleaned on the memories.
- Having my back go out and spending four days not able to stand straight or barely move. Again I gave into the pain when I should have been cleaning the memories.
- Stressing about money and not having enough. I should realize that feelings towards money are memories, and to let go and trust in God to provide.
- Getting a cold, and a few months later the flu. I never get sick. That should have clued me in right there to clean the memories that were piling up and still are.
- My other biggest problem is judging people. It’s like this automatic thing that I do, more than half the time, I don’t even realize I am judging a person. I should recognize this and clean these memories.

But I think the biggest reason I got unstuck was when my husband got into a minor car accident. Thank goodness it was only minor. This was my wake up call. At first I was scared and shocked. But I soon clued in to the obvious; I wasn’t doing my job cleaning the memories.

The last reason which inspired me to write this blog post, were the comments from you, the people who read my blog. Thank you for writing and asking me how I am, and saying you missed my postings. It means a lot and has helped me in my time of need.

I’m not going to promise that I’m going to post twice a week or anything, but I am going to remember to clean and aim to post at least once a month. We’ll see if I stick to it.

For now I need to clean all the memories that are inside my head

I’m sorry for whatever is inside me that is causing all these bad things. Please erase these memories and transmute me back to zero. Please help erase these memories and bring me back to peace. I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry.

I’d like to say to everyone Thank You for reading, and Thank You for helping me clean by erasing memories.

I love you

T